Below are the 11 most recent journal entries recorded in tweaver227's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, November 16th, 2005
9:20 pm	blah...blah...and more blah... so its definately been MONTHS since i last posted. i guess i've been neglected poor live journal...sad. but now i'm back. i ton has change...and any of you who will actually read this probably know everything...but oh well. this is for me...to vent. all moved into my room...like months ago. it was a long process. but its almost done...atleast all the decorating is almost done..thats all i have to do. i got a job. 2 since i last posted. i worked at alderbrook. hell on earth. now i'm working at kims. i love it...well, for a job anyway. i would almost rather just be a lazy ass...but the money is nice, and i feel semi productive my summer sucked balls. all i did was work, go to school, and get fucked over by asshole guys. all summer. the highlight of my summer: warped tour. other than that...pretty much sucked. it had its moments of course...but no good parties...friends disapeared. i got a tattoo over the summer...then got another one a couple of months ago...i suppose thats a high point. hmm. but yea. evergreen is amazing!!!! love it! its totally kicking my ass. but thats good. i need the challenge. lots of hotties. one in particular. but i won't get into that..cause i'm a total chicken about the whole. thing. total high-school-crush-like. and i haven't had one of those...since...well, high school. and even then....lets just say its been awhile. so yea. my life in a nutshell. back to my paper thats kicking my ass....agh Current Mood: restless Current Music: THE BEATLES!!! (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, June 13th, 2005
12:02 pm	hmm.... so i just realized that i haven't written in a very long time. i'm home now...yay. not that you all don't already know that...but hey, i'm excited. i'm officially done with western. for good. i'm starting at evergreen the end of july. yup. thats right, july. i decided to go for the 2nd summer session as a way to ease myself into the new environment. i'm pretty stoked about it too because i got my first pick for summer and fall quarters. my programs are gonna rock! i went to super saturday this last weekend. it made me even more excited about the greener experience. so moving out on thursday was extremely awkward. i hadn't been around erin in about a week. as we haven't really spoken in months...with the exception of our big blow out last month. and of course she was home when i was packing up my car. so i quickly packed it up and said "i'm headin out" and left. yay. no more do i have to deal with bullshit like that....well hopefully no more. its so unhealthy. now i'm starting over again. i just have to find a new job and actually get moved in. all my shit is in the garage still....in boxes. so my goal this week is to get a job and move into my new bedroom. ~t Current Mood: hopeful (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 26th, 2005
8:29 pm	yes!! 14 days!! exactly 2 weeks!! so today i realized just how soon i'm moving home....2 weeks. exactly. yes! i'm so excited to be back home around people who actually care about me. but...in the mean time...i have 2 days left at work. tomorrow and saturday from 3 in the afternoon to 10 at night. then...saturday i'm heading home for a few days. i'll be in shelton from saturday night til tuesday night...possibly trying to find a job, if i don't all ready have one that is... i applied at hollywood video in shelton on tuesday. then, yesterday (wednesday) i got a phone call from the district manager of the shelton hollywood asking me if i was still interested in working for their company...i told her "well, actually i already for the one in bellingham, but i'm moving home in a couple of weeks and that thats why i applied for the shelton one..." shes calling my dist manager to see about a transfer. that would be so awesome..not to have to look for another job. anyways..i think thats it for now! love~t Current Mood: refreshed (Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 24th, 2005
1:38 pm	whoo hoo so....my life is getting a little better since the last time that i wrote. i registered for my program last thursday. got my first pick! yay! i don't ever remember the last time that i got my first pick of anything at western. just makes me even more sure that i made the right choice to transfer. so then that same day i put my two weeks notice in at hollywood video. then, like 10 minutes later, lena (the only person i've ever lived with and actually liked) got hired. so now i get to spend my last few days working wth her :) yay...again! so then....on friday i found out that i definately don't have a problem with drugs and alcohol...most of you know what that means....another yay! not that i thought that i had one...but you know. so then...i signed up for my victims impact panel ($50 out the window) then i signed up for my alcohol info class ($66 out the window)...now i'm poor. but...then friday i went home. it felt so good to pack up my car. i had spent the entire week packing up my stuff that i'm not gonna need for the rest of the quarter. my car was jam-packed with stuff. it just felt so good and put into perspective just how soon i'll be home for good. my roomies just sat there and watched me pack my shit out to my car...i'm not sure if they know how much i truly hate living here. so then i got to spend the weekend with my very stressed out family. saturday was mai's graduation party. she just graduated from plu and is headed to arizona to go to univ of az. that event was quite interesting....my house was full of people from grandmas church that i didn't know. so, then...was shay's recital - very good this year...i'm proud of her. then, saturday night, me and bre and shay and david went to ian's party...and we were there for like 20 minutes. i felt soooo old. saw erica espino for the first time since graduation. that was weird. i think she was drunk. then we left there and went to dustin marshalls. it was pretty fun til bre and david got in a fight. i hope she opens her eyes up and sees how unhappy she seems. maybe she knows now, i hope so, because she deserves happiness. anyways...then sunday i went to shays recital again. she kicked ass...again. then we had a mini bbq with shays friends out at our house. i didn't end up leaving shelton until after 11pm. i didn't get up to b-ham until about 2am. that was quite a drive. i spent the good last part of it on the phone with dustin. he cracks me up...and he managed to keep me awake on my long drive home. now...its the beginning of one of my last weeks up here. things in the apartment are uncomfortable as can be. i'm trying to be optimistic about it though. 16 more days and i'll never have to see her again...thats my form of optimism...is that bad. i guess it's something to look forward to. anything to get me through this. school is actually going okay....now that i'm only taking 13 credits it's less stressful. as long as i can pull out with a decent gpa i'll be happy. i'll prob end up with a couple of c's and a b. i'm fine with that though...because after this quarter...no more grades....yay! another way that i knew evergreen was the place for me. well...back to homework. later! ~t Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: saves the day (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 16th, 2005
12:13 pm	GRRR...... so...definately had the week (and weekend) from hell. so, here's the run down. monday: flunked a major midterm in political theory (worth 40% of my grade), went to see my prof about it and he didn't really help me much. and then when i got home my laptop had crashed...plus i still had the flu...since the monday before. then i snapped at my roommate jesse (over the tv....whoops), don't worry, i appologized. tuesday: cleaned my entire apartment (again)...little experiment though, i didn't run the dishwasher (it was full). worked from 11-3:30. then i left to head to shelton for the night. wednesday: went to academic fair at evergreen...okay...so that was good...., then i drove back to b-ham to find that the dishwasher still hadn't been ran...pretty sick huh? when to the computer lab til about 11:30. came home, went to bed. thursday: had another midterm (ended up with a D...yay). then i got home to find the roomy hogging the tv again. studied all day...most of which in the computer lab. took my laptop to get fixed. friday: picked up my laptop (120 bucks flushed down the toilet). came home to my the roomy hogging the tv again (fucking soap opearas). so i locked myself in my room (again) to study (on a friday....). then i got into it with erin....it was bad. things are done between us for good. i was seriously ready to rent a moving truck and get the hell outta here right then...thats just how bad it was. so, i stormed out so that i wouldn't have to listen to her anymore. i went and stayed at my cousin chelsea's. it was so nice. very relaxing. saturday: went to ihop at 7am....for work. then i went to work from 3-11. then i went back to chelsea's and stayed there for the night. sunday: definately spent the day reading and watching sex and the city with chels and her roommate. then it was back to hell (aka my apartment). so...in a nutshell...it fucking sucked. my roommate situation couldn't be worse. i don't even feel welcome in my own goddamn apartment. okay...so, i admit that i probably cause some of the problems. but honestly, i can't think of anything that i've done to deserve to be treated like shit. i am counting down the days til i get outta here and i never have to see her again. 24 days...subtract 2 for this coming weekend that i'm going home....22 freaking more days....thats just over 3 weeks.... Current Mood: pissed off Current Music: riddlin kids (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 10th, 2005
11:42 pm	so i'm really bored and tired The Keys to Your Heart You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart. In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please. Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love. Your risk of cheating is 100%. You are not suited for a monogamous relationship. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted. What Are The Keys To Your Heart? does this really sound like me??? i think not....okay, so some of it might.... Current Mood: tired Current Music: none, cause my computed crashed.....grr (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 23rd, 2005
6:19 pm	procrastination....good or bad?? i am so sick of school!! i have now been going to school for over 16 years...including preschool. i think its time to be done. but no. i still have atleast 4 years left. i'm hoping that a change of environment will help me get focused again. one plus for evergreen. i've come to the conclusion that i just get bored really really fast. i feel like a just need a change about every 2 years. in high school it was friends. every 2 years or so i would completely change my groups of friends. this wasn't intentional or anything, of course. it just kind happened. its weird the things that you notice when looking back at the past. now, i just change locations....what seems for feasible...? lol. i'm a dork...and a half ;) so i'm kinda freakin out. i'm just really tense lately...and really pissy. i'm not sure whats wrong with me. everything that people (un-named people....) do gets to me. i keep finding myself storming out of my apartment with no real destination...or locking myself in my room. its kinda sad. i don't go out anymore. i don't do much of anything. i've been renting lots of movies...thanks to my job they are free...thank goodness. otherwise i'd be even more broke than i am right now...what, is that possible? my bank account is currently at $0. awe, the life of a college kid. it freakin sucks. even if i did want to go out i couldn't afford it. don't worry kerry...i'll have gas money for next weekend. love~t Current Mood: restless Current Music: the ataris - my so-called life (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 16th, 2005
3:40 pm	weekend blues I worked on Thursday. As soon as I got to Hollywood one of my managers asked me if I was ready to take on more hours. Of course I said "yes" cause I'm a total broke ass. Apparently the girl that was supposed to work this weekend get deathly ill on the weekends and can't work her shifts. So I took them, all 13 hours. I was supposed to hang with Jodi Smith all weekend and I was totally pumped about it, but I couldn't pass up the hours...luckly she totally understood and has a test on Monday anyway. So how did Tara spend her Friday night....? I definately rented the entire last season of Sex and the City...and watched the entire thing between last night and this morning. How totally pathetic is that? I've turned into a total hermit lately...and I hate it. Even though I'm working all weekend I could have atleast done something last night, but I didn't. I was only here by myself for half the night though. Erin actually stayed here...without Pete for once...and Shannon came by and hung out for a while. So I guess it wasn't a complete waste of a Friday night. Now, the weekend has really just started...but I'm working til close tonight and from 5-10 tomorrow night. So, basically my entire weekend is over. It's all good though...I've kinda started to get used to this boringness. One good thing is going on though. I'm getting more and more excited about moving home and starting evergreen. I'm actually trying to figure out a way that I can move home at the end of June. I just have to find someway to pay July's rent...or get someone else to live in my room for one month...hopefully something will work out cause I really don't want to pay rent when I'm not even going to be here. I supposed I could just stay up here through July and just keep working at Hollywood....hmm....I would rather move home and get settled in before I start class at Evergreen. Okay...well, I better go get ready for a long night of work.... love~t Current Mood: blah Current Music: The Ataris (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 12th, 2005
10:44 am	exciting new news..... I got into Evergreen!! YAY!! can you tell i'm excited?? I've decided that i'm going. so that means that i'm definately going to move back to shelton in August or September. i'll live in my parents office. i'm not sure how that'll go....but hopefully it'll make up for the fact that i won't be spending money on rent...or food for that matter. anyways...better get my freakin homework... love~t Current Mood: excited Current Music: The Matches (Comment on this)
Monday, April 11th, 2005
8:13 pm	big decisions.... I've finally made a pretty big decision. I applied to Evergreen State College for transfer for the fall. I applied a couple of weeks late though, so we'll see. Keep your fingers crossed for me!! I really want this. If I get in then I'm going for sure. I'll be moving back to good old Shelton in August...back in with the parents and lil sis. It might get a little crazy....we'll see. I also applied to St. Marten's College, but I think that it's just a tad bit too conservative for me. I think that if I don't get into Evergreen for the fall then I'm going to try again for winter. Hopefully, if I don't get in, the only reason will be because I applied late. Anyways....better get to my homework....agh! love~t Current Mood: excited Current Music: Copeland (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 29th, 2005
9:20 pm	grr okay...so this is my first journal entry and i'm going to vent. so i just started spring quarter up at western. and i hate it. i don't want to be up here anymore. i don't remember the last time i got a class that i actually wanted. I'm seriously considering moving back home and transfering to st. martins, evergreen, or ups....but we'll see. i also don't remember the last time that i was truly happy - with the exception of spring break of course...go mariners! i just feel as though i'm drifting away from everyone. i'm not sure whats up with me. hopefully i'll figure it out soon though...cause right now i'm driving myself nuts. i guess i'm just frustrated with everything....my friends, school, and the fact that i don't do anything anymore. i'm a total bum.... Current Mood: frustrated Current Music: matchbook romance (Comment on this)